Re-awakening

So I've been doing a lot of reminding. Re-Reading books that have sat on the shelf for a while. Going through old journals. Reconnecting.

I found the Holosync meditation system and have been using that for a little over a year. Simply put, they use sound waves to produce deep states of meditation. It's very simple, it takes an hour a day, and it takes the stress away from meditating. There is a link to the right if you want more information.

I've become a totally different person in the last month. All of this reading and learning and meditating led me to the point exactly a week ago, that I knew I needed a drastic change.. a jolt of sorts. I saw a special on the "evolution diet" where people (in the UK I think) ate nothing but raw fruits and veggies for 10 days. The very next morning I announced to my husband and daughter that I'd be doing that very thing. Plan on cooking their own meals.

I didn't know if I could make it ten days.. but I knew I was going to try. Day by day I'd see how far I could get.

The first day was the hardest. But I ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted as long as it was a raw food. The first day I didn't eat nuts either, just raw fruits and veggies, water and coffee. On the second day I added some nuts.

Much to my surprise, today is day 8. The only cooked food I've had in the past week are about 6 stuffed grape leaves and about 6 oz of fish. Both of those things I had this weekend.

My net result is a loss of 13 pounds this week. All of my clothes are loose. I'm not hungry. I'm more energized than I have been in years, and I can finally see it. I can see myself living like this and eating like this. It's not an extremest view. I don't see myself never eating meat again (cuz I really like it) or only eating raw all the time. But I do see myself eating like this until my body decides what it's healthy weight is.

My whole family is eating more raw fruits and veggies -- which is an amazing thing. I don't have any cravings. My food needs are system based. If I do strenuous exercise, I need more food. (that's when I ate the grape leaves).

But the most striking realization so far is an odd one. In order to eat this way, you must not adhere to a 3 meal system. This way of eating is a nibbler's paradise. Just about every hour I eat something. An apple, a carrot, lettuce roll-ups.. resulting in way smaller meals. Sunday we had a "dinner": fish (baked in teriyaki sauce), big raw veggie plate and pasta for the family. I didn't even desire any pasta. I ate the fish and some raw veggies, fruit for dessert.

About a month ago I went through all of my clothes and got rid of anything and everything that didn't fit. Things too small, too big.. just a huge clean out. I kept 3 items that were "kinda tight", but I felt I could wear this summer... everything else went. Those three things now fit me perfectly and I have at least one pair of pants I can no longer wear.

I'm now thinking about transition clothing. What am I going to wear after I can't wear what I have any longer? I don't want to have to buy more than one new wardrobe. It's amazing to wake up with the feeling that it's over. I'm officially not fat anymore.

My daughter got up after a nap yesterday and told me she had a dream that I was just a little bit bigger than her. Well, I'm currently 222 pounds -- I guess I'm not the only one that feels the change is already here.

In my head, I'm already there. This is going to be fun!