They'd shove me away but I'd be alright.

Uptight.. Uptight...

Uptight.. Up -- tight...

Up -- tight..

There are a few times in your life.. when people say things to you.. you know you'll remember them forever.

I had one of those tonight. I feel I've been shoved away.. But I'll be alright. mom I'm alright.

So I'm a bit uptight. You don't get over these things easily. (Be a duck!)
Funny that I've just been digging deep into my childhood to find those things that cause me shame and feelings of unworthiness.. when one shows up in my every day life.

I don't feel shame. I know better. Still I don't know where it's left me.
What's too much?
When do you give up?
When people who supposedly love you hurt you on purpose and think you should be ashamed.. what do you do?
I can't do the same thing. I can't not forgive. I can't be ashamed. I can't take responsibility for the actions (or inactions) of others.
I'll just be happy. It's all I can do.
Why so green and lonely? and lonely? and lonely?
Heaven sent you to me. to me. to me.
but who?