Change is good!

Everyone in my house is enjoying the change in our eating habits. I've been doing really well sticking to the "raw food" diet. It seems as long as I eat something with natural fat in it during the day, it's easy to stick with the plan. You know.. olives, avocado, nuts, seeds.

We're remodeling the bathroom so I haven't weighed since Sunday -- I've vowed not to weigh again until it's done.. probably a couple of days.. so we shall see.

Meanwhile, I've started making my bed. Now for most people, this wouldn't seem like something out of the norm. For me, it is. I've never made my bed in my life. I don't know why not. Just never have. Curious.

I've been thinking a lot about my inner child. Today's post on my liftyourlife.blogspot.com (my Radiohead blog) is about that. There is a lyric in the song, Fog, that goes, "there's a little child running round this house, and he never leaves, he will never leave". That's very true of all of us.

For most of my adult life I have not been able to recall my childhood. I don't know if maybe I just haven't tried, or what. Sure, I remember that time when.. you know.. the stories everyone tells, the major stuff like breaking bones, which I did a lot.... But the in-between stuff. How I felt about things as a kid, well, I really don't remember them.

So, I've been trying to spend time during my meditations remembering the child that I once was and what she was like inside. What toys were her favorites? What was her favorite thing to do? What brought her comfort and joy?

I'm finding it a bit difficult to distinguish, looking back as an adult, what I actually enjoyed, and what I enjoyed because it brought approval from my parents. For example, I always loved fishing with my dad. Was it because I actually liked fishing or just wanted to be with my dad?

As I move forward in my life I want to do those things that bring me joy. Investigate those things that I love to do and actually do them. What haven't I tried that I may absolutely love?

What have I been waiting for? Time to find out what brings me joy and do it. Seems silly to do anything else, doesn't it?
So here's a challenge.. if anyone is out there...
Spend today noticing. Look for "signs". Let go and be guided today. Assume that song on the radio is playing to tell you something. Put the ipod on shuffle and pay attention to the messages and signals you get.

Or.. grab a book, any book, think of a question.. ask it in your mind. Open the book (anywhere) and read. Amazing.