Be constructive..

There is so much going on.

I know the Holosync meditation comes with a "managing change" program. So, on the shelf it sits.. but this stuff is really changing things.

I don't know if the rest of my world sees the monumental changes. I think they do. There have been conversations this past week -- people are starting to say things to me that I never thought they would say. It's scary. Kind of like what you know will happen is actually unfolding. Houses built from string and rubber bands rarely withstand strong winds.

My new eating habits seem to have stuck. I exercise almost every day still. Though I've been a little lenient with myself, I have maintained my 20 lb weight loss so far. I do believe, however, that scales should be eliminated from the world. I bought some new clothes -- a couple sizes smaller than normal.. and am feeling amazing!

Happy = yes.

Things are starting to pick up. I have more work and am squeezing in more of the things that I enjoy doing. It's funny that once you stop the bullshit and try to experience your life from your heart.. doing only those things that feel right and good.. people are resistant. If they have to suffer than so should you!

It's amazing how ingrained we are in the concept of suffering. I was thinking of one of my dad's favorite sayings today: "When I have money, they'll listen." He said a variation of that phrase very frequently. Do I really believe that? Does a person need to have money to have a valid point?

By looking at these things.. these beliefs that I have from my childhood.. and asking myself if they are true for me, I have been liberated in ways that I have a hard time expressing.

Try it.. you'll see.