Let down and hanging around

It's been a little while since I took time to post here. The let down of our seasons' end usually has me curling up on the couch with a book. This year I'm learning how to play the guitar and I think I've crossed some threshold because it doesn't hurt to play anymore! YAY!

I did just get done reading, Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. A very nice read indeed. (Thank you Debbie!) And I'll be passing it along. I like the idea of this book! It was given to me by a friend. The bookmark is a bandaid, representing how your life can be healed right along with the author. Then you send it along to someone else you feel would enjoy the book. Right up my alley, as my mom used to say.

Speaking of mom, this month's emotional challenge came up on me unexpectedly. I received an e-mail from my mother's best friend, Bonnie, saying she and her husband would be in the area, could we visit for a while? Wow.. I didn't realize how much spending three hours chatting with them (not even about mom) would stir up an emotional whirlwind I'm still not completely over. It just reminded me how much I miss my mom, and what a great person she was... how funny, how smart.. hell.. she was my mom. Enough said.

So I sit here plotting my winter and filling my days with things I want to do. It's a nice change from the hustle and bustle of our spring/summer season with all of our customers milling about. I miss most of them already, lol, but I'm also basking in my oneness. Recharging. Pressing the reset button.

I've managed to maintain my weightloss -- which, by the way, is no easy task when you're occupational hazard is the most delicious ice cream in the world. Starbucks Ice Coffees ended up being my summer indulgence. Mmmm.. if it were not so cold, I'd like one now!

I will be embarking on a great challenge this winter as well. I'm starting another blog/website: fixtheinside.com It will be dedicated to helping people stop the yo-yo dieting cycle by finding out why they eat in the first place. Which is what I've done in my life.

Now, I know I'm not all the way there yet.. but dammit, I've lost 50 pounds and kept it off. But better than that.. I can see keeping it off (and losing more) just because I continue to work on the inside.

That doesn't mean that I don't slip up.. a life forever skipping yummy treats like ice coffees and pizza does not seem very fun to me. But, I've made my peace with food, and this will be how I share it with the world.. in the hopes others may do the same.

I'll keep posting here, occasionally. It's an online diary of sorts.
Happy Winter! (we're supposed to get a foot of snow today -- woot!)